January 2012

Its been awhile since i posted.... I never liked to post out my feelings & life to the public, but since 1 day, i slowly started to do it everytime i think of something....

Anyway, first things first. I'm going to POP from Transcom basic training tomorrow, 9 Jan 2012 Monday, and start patrol on 12 Jan 2012, Thursday. we 144th Intake, Alpha team have to take force leave for 10 Jan & 11 Jan since they work morning shift and our TL doesn't want us to work morning shift for starters. Our leave is minus by 2 days....  The training was fun and stressful (for me), because we got quite afew things to learn, which i cann't say out, under the Singapore Law Act.

Ok, now will be my personal life. Had lunch with Wei Keat & Wen Hui at KFC, Nex from 12.30pm - around 2.30pm. I was suppose to be with Suren, Syahril, Li He, Anuar, Lay Kuan & Li Ying with the activity being cycling @ ECP. But slowly, 1 by 1 cann't come.

But before this was a Countdown Party with my big group of friends @ K-Union, Cinileisure. We really had fun & some got drunk with Marttel V.S.O.P & mix w/ coke too.... We also had plain water for healthy peoples. We played '5 10', poll, dance, sing, act, drink, & party! had a fun night with them until 6am

Still before this, was Benjamin Poh's Birthday at 17 December 2011. Went to Changi Aloha Halton C to celebrate. Played wit the kids before all came to celebrate. Helped out with decorations too. Some from inlife stayed overnight. We had too much food lift, so no choice, left some in the cooker for the cleaners to eat after we left, around 10+am.

Final section of this post.

Last night i almost cried myself to sleep because of personal problem. Thought of something & someone after i went to sleep at 12.45am. & slept around 1am. Still thinking whether should i pluck out my courage and go or stay as how i used to be, keeping quite about everything and everyone. With courage, i can know the answer which i want to know since then.

P.S. I'm thinking of you and crying when i was lying down on my bed. I should be talking to you, but i know that you can't talk about love face to face. this is what's bothering me from talking to you.

Fun

Saw on your Facebook, Twitter that you going taiwan on 11 Dec 2011, Sunday, for 1 week. Hope you have fun, learn what Taiwanese(s) do there. Hope when you come back from Taiwan, you'll be a better girl, because i know that Taiwan isn't as a bad influence as Singapore.

Had fun ytd & today, 11 Dec 2011 (Sunday) & 12 Dec 2011 (Monday), Played Laser Tag with Crossfire Laser Tag both were under blocks & at multi-storey carparks. The playing ground was quite a big area, coz it covers about 3-5 blocks distance. 1st was us (Haq, Zai, Zul, Gavin, Aiman, Edwin & me) with 2 team marshals, 1 malay guy & 1 chinese girl... 2nd was me & Zai played with 3 malay girls who are new to this game.

POP Oh!!! on 9 Dec 2011. had known my posting,as Transcom... I'm going to patrol around MRT Stations in the future,during my NS times.... So, see you in MRT Stations =)

P.S. I've been thinking of you more & more often.

It hurts

It hurts me seeing you drinking more often. It hurts me seeing you started smoking. It hurts me seeing you missing me. It hurts me every time i remember you. It hurts me when i didn't get to remember you.  It hurts me so much. But i'll endure all these just for you. Good things have to wait right?

To start this post. Hi to you, hope you have a great day today =)

I'm hurt internally, externally, mentally and whole heartedly.

Internally: The left side of my lower back has begun again, for the 2nd time 2 days ago when i went to gym during OTOT time in camp.

Externally: I'm getting tired because i'm stressing myself to exercise to get back the muscles last time. Also training for POP in camp for 9 Dec 2011, the big day which HTA extend our time inside by 1 more month.

Mentally: Alot has happened and going to happen, so i'm stress. Ben Poh's 21st B'day chalet on 17 Dec, SG(B) clique gathering, meeting Mei Jia (date not fixed), meeting Zhan Yan (NITEC classmate).

Whole heartedly: My heart aches when i see Singapore teenagers not even growing up mentally. [How will these ppl protect Singapore(army), the citizens (NPCs), Singapore sky (air force), buildings (SCDF)]. My heart also aches everytime i miss someone.

Just to end this post. I've been influenced by you to start blogging. So you are already in my life, so don't every go out of my life.