Me again?

I know that i've been changed by you... I was once never letting out my feelings to the public... But since the time u said that you like to post your feelings out, i slowly started too.... Now all my feelings been been written here, just for you to read.... But i doubt that you'll read all this as now what i did was to only f**king irritating you. So now i'll STOP. You posted on facebook that it will be best if you disappear from my life and it will make me happy. But when u disappear, i'll really feel guilty. Whenever i think about the time we were tgt,it makes me shiver in fear. Just this afternoon, i ask to meet you and you said no. I'm not sure if you are avoiding me, but now i decided that i won't be caring about you. I'll be treating you like one of my friend of lost contact, i'll never going to contact you until something has happen. Never will i going to message you from time to time to keep my boredom away.

There's NO POINT in me to think about you again since you decided to leave my life, and started to think that i'm f**king irritating. I'm sorry that i entered your life. I'm sorry to have caused you so much pain and suffering. These will fade away in due time (i hope). I'LL NEVER GOING TO IRRITATE YOU AGAIN.

I'm sorry that i'm F**KING IRRITATING. I'm sorry that there's NO POINT in anything. I'm sorry that i ENTERED YOU LIFE.
Now i'm leaving you for good.
Good Bye my first girlfriend which lasted only 2months. You never lost anything. We never vowed, never kissed, never dated, never even touched. But our happy moments tgt will be in my memory.

Happy 46th Birthday Singapore, Hello NS Life & Bye Bye Pink IC

Firstly, i would like to say

Happy 46th Birthday Singapore!

You've come so far from a malay kampong island (Singapura) to the exchange pot the Sir Stamford Raffles intended to achieve, to now the on growing technological, well grown Mother of the people here (Singapore).
& also Happy Birthday to my 2 friends, Aw Yee Bang & Ling Huan Who are also born on this date. =)

Secondly, I'm getting ready to book-in to camp for the 1st time in my life... NS days are here... NS is so generious to give us(those who are booking in the same date as me) another Public Holiday to rest... So that they won't have to pay us while we'r out of camp. Clever... Singapore Ministry personal are clever =)
10 August 2011 is the day i book in.... 8.30am at Home Team Academe, Old Chua Chu Kang Road.

Thirdly & Lastly for this post.
If you are reading this, my girl, i'm not sure if u already know that i'm going for NS tomorrow, but i'm going to msg u telling u so. =) I keep going to your FB wall & read all your daily posts... coz i think i like you, but i'm not sure if i love you. I go your blog to read once in a while too. All those emo posts makes my feel bad & sad. I'm sorry that i hust you in the past. & i seriously wants to make it up to you. If you like, i wish to get back to you. I know that you are suffering, mentally, me too. I'm not sure about you but you are who i think of evryday...
I'll be sending you a msg today, a time that i think i wouldn't affect you when u are busy... i hope you sre looking forward to it as i am...